`lil miss smiley. :)

2005-12-11T12:21:00.000+08:00

I have been blogging at a new place. :) Interested parties can MSN me. Heh. Take care all.

2005-10-13T16:04:00.000+08:00

If I were to get married next time, these words must definitely be printed on the invitation cards, in gold italic.. Yesterday, we discovered love gently unfolding in our hearts, whispering of the joy to come. Today, our dreams will come true, creating memories that we will cherish for a lifetime. Tomorrow, we being a new journey hand in hand, eager to explore a world of promise. Forever, we'll share everlasting love that comes from God alone. :)

2005-10-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

Why am I crying on my mum's birthday? ***** I felt terribly upset and pissed off when someone in my buddy list said to another that "Adam deleted liz coz she was of no use to him." If you were me, hearing another person say that of you, what would you do? Yes, I was extremely pissed at first. Then I was terribly upset and hurt. I felt like she was making Adam seem like such a jerk and then, making me look like such a stupid idiot. It seemed like I had just had sex with my boyfriend, gave him my virginity and he dumped me after that coz I was no longer chaste. Adam deleted so many people in his buddy list. Why did she pick me to tell stories of? She doesn't even know the full story of the situation in the first place. The guys just confronted her in the BL just now and though she apologised to me, I felt that it wasn't really sincere at all. To hear another girl speak that of you. It really sucks. I gave her a chance really. I remember that I told Jocelyn about her before. I remembered what Justin, Ming and the rest told me about her. I didn't want to believe it actually. It shocked me that she was this kinda person. After 2 whole weeks not playing MS and she changed so much. Although I didn't talk to her much after that, I just decided to give her a little bit more chance to change as JT said that they had talked to her on the MRT. Sigh. And to think that this happened. I was really blown away by it. You said you have your own problems to deal with. I have mine too. You're just so much luckier than me and you don't realise it. ***** It's my mum's birthday today. I woke up earlier than I should have, hoping that I could actually think of a place to bring my mum to go and to put a smile on her face. Eventually, my brother decided not to go anywhere for the whole day because he needed to study for his last paper tomorrow. I could sense some disappointment that my mum had. I knew that she was quite troubled by the fact that none of the ex-colleaguges remembered her birthday, although they promised to celebrate it for her, they never did. I know the bond that she has with them. I know that her heart was breaking when she tendered in her resignation. I know that she feels that she's so useless now. I know she hates having nothing to do at all. I know she loves to be busy. I know that she loved her job. I know that at the age of 46, she can't really find a job that easily anymore. But still, we all have hope and faith in our heart that she would find one soon. She's been through a few interviews and none have replied to her at the moment. When we were singing a birthday song to her I could feel her eyes water. I didn't want to tell her that I've spent almost $100 today, on the cake plus the pizza hut that I ordered. I didn't want to tell her that I have no more savings in my bank. I just don't want her to worry about me. I know that she's unhappy with my results and hope that I can do better and get into a university. I know that she was upset and broken hearted when I told her that I might not want to go to a uni afterall, but to venture into my own business. I know how much she is worrying for me because even though I'm the eldest in the family, I am still a baby to her. I know that she feels that I'm ignoring her, but really, I'm not. I just don't know what to talk to her about. I know that she knows that I'm angry with her for quitting her job and that there won't be much income coming in for our family. Although times are really bad now, Mum, I just want to tell you that I love you so much. No matter what, we must both be strong. I know that you can do it. Although you might say that you're old, you're forever talented in my heart. Don't ever doubt the talents that you have and possess. I'm sure that you'll be able to find a boss who will see the potential in you, just like how Bill did. :) I love you mum. Happy Birthday to you. :) P/S: Sorry for not being able to give you a proper surprise on your birthday. I love you lots. :) Thanks for standing by me through ups and downs.

2005-10-11T04:12:00.000+08:00

I hate the hols. It has been such a sucky holiday where nothing had been done and I've been so emotionally exhausted all the time. My mum is still out of the job. I really hate that. She keeps insisting that I should wake up early when I don't want to. She's been nagging at me the whole day and complains that she hasn't seen enough of me or talk to me at all. Seriously, what does she want me to talk to her for the whole day? She can't expect me to suddenly just talk to her like that right? I really hope that she can find a job soon. I really don't wish to see her at home all the time. My results were out and I passed everything! Was expecting to fail FMGT, however it turned out that I've gotten a C! :) My results sucked man. I've only got 1 A and the rest are all Cs. Sigh. I seriously was hoping that my ECD would be an AD. :( Anyway, this would mean that I'd have one lesser worry! Just need to worry about which class I would be posted to and whether I'm still together with my classmates. Mum's birthday is coming and I really wonder what surprise can I actually give her.. In the meantime, I'm off to bed. Really exhausted.

2005-09-26T18:56:00.000+08:00

I'm worried about my studies now. Just read through my classmates' blog and I'm really afraid that I would be seperated from my class next year.. :( I'm afraid that I would have to repeat a module. I'm afraid of opening up once again to strangers that I don't know. I'm afraid that if I were to fail a module, my mum would be terribly upset again. I don't think I want her to suffer another heartache. I'm afraid of making new friends once again. What would they think of me? A thousand and one fears I have in my mind. Results will be out on the 6th Oct. I hope that I'll pass all my modules. I hope that I won't be separated from my classmates. I hope that I can still be in the comfort zone of my friends. I hope I hope I hope. Right now, I'll just pray for the best. I'm really going to pray very hard. I can't afford to fail anything..

2005-09-26T18:33:00.000+08:00

Been pretty emotional lately. My mum resigned from her job and yes, we're abit financially tight for the moment. So I guess I won't be able to enjoy all those pleasures that I used to last time for this period. :( Anyway, I was really pleased one day when I stepped on the weighing scale and saw that I lost weight!! I immediately ran to my brother and told him about it! However, my dear brother broke my happy bubble when he told me that the weighing machine is spoilt. !@#!@#!@#!@$ Oh well. There goes my happiness.

2005-09-15T17:40:00.000+08:00

For so long I've always hoped that one day, I'll be able to go out and meet these online friends of mine that I've known so well and interacted with in the game. It's still my wish now really. But I don't know if I can actually muster up the courage to do that. The past still haunts me down. I'm afraid of the consequences once we meet. Will they shun me upon knowing how ugly I am and that I'm not living up to their expectations of how I should look? For so many times I've told myself that I must have the confidence to go out there and face the world. Although that is a constant reminder in my head, I still have very low self-esteem and insecurity in myself. I feel that people are talking behind my back, laughing at me etc. They say that time heals all wounds. Seriously, I don't know when mine would be healed. I still hate that guy for doing that to me in the past. I really do. But what's done is done and the hurt will still be there. Until the hurt is gone and the courage appears, would I then be able to go out, face the world and embrace it with my heart. For now, please forgive me for not being able to have the courage to meet you guys as much as I would love to. There are so many obstacles within myself that I need to face and overcome. You might assure me that the consequence would not be there. But, I would not be fooled. I need more time for this hurt and fear to go away in me. I really do.

2005-09-14T03:05:00.000+08:00

Loneliness bugs me again. Low self-esteem and confidence, it's all starting to come back to me. I feel really really horrible right now. Partly angry with myself, partly angry with him. Tears are flowing outta my eyes again. Please my dear friend, don't come back to me.. Depression is what it takes to bring me down..

2005-09-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

I don't know if it's coz I'm having periods or what, but I'm just really really exhausted and tired. Slept for like 10hours and I'm still so sleepy and exhausted. I don't understand, why we must have exams now!!! Sheesh. I'm like so totally unmotivated to study. I wanna play game!!!!! :( Can't wait for the exams to be over... Sighhh.

2005-09-09T01:33:00.000+08:00

Maybe everything's gonna be alright afterall. I'm hoping. Hope hangs on a thin thin thread. :) But I'm happy for now. :))

2005-09-08T13:38:00.000+08:00

I must try not to lose my focus now. No more anticipation in talking to him. I shouldn't even have the urge to sms him. I need to get him outta my mind. I need to study now. Study study study, which I'm half-hearted about. Ugh. I just can't wait for all these to be over..

2005-09-08T03:50:00.000+08:00

Have been seriously losing focus the past few days. I really wonder how am I gonna score for my exams. Shucks man. It really sucks. I've been telling myself that I will not touch the game anymore, but somehow I still go inside. Ahh! :( Well, alot of things has been flowing through my mind. Stuff like what I should do during the holidays, instead of wasting my time playing the game. I think I should borrow some books to read, go to KBOX almost every week, learn something new (eg. like a sport or what to lose some weight), buy new clothes, cook up a storm for my friends, etc. So many things to do, so little time.. :( God bless me for my exams. ***** I don't know what to say. Sometimes, I just feel like confessing. Sometimes, I don't. Sometimes, you leave me breathless. Sometimes, you get me all confused. I really have no idea what's going on through your mind.. I just hope that things will turn out to be positive, just the way I want them to be. :(

2005-09-06T21:15:00.000+08:00

There are so many knots inside my heart. I have no idea when it would be untied. I cannot lose focus.. Not at this time.. Sigh. :( I need you, you know?

2005-09-06T15:22:00.000+08:00

Haven't really been concentrating on my studies recently. Skipping all the revision lectures, due to the late nights that I've been staying up chatting with my friends. :) And really, it has became a habit. Heh. Anyway, I promise that I would definitely start studying extremely hard for the papers tomorrow! I really don't want to fail! Sigh. & Yihong still can tell me he going to sing KBOX for the next two days!! =.= ***** What's all these anticipation about? What do I really want from you? I really don't know myself. Sometimes I just wish that I can have someone else there for me, besides my friends. But, things do go wrong sometimes. Sigh. :( All I want is for you to be back at my side again.. ***** The past few days of conferencing made me realise that people are really not who they are. Even your so called friend, would go behind other people's back and start talking bad about you. The character of some people really do change in the game. Somehow I feel that it can be controlled. It's your character really. But you need to realised that what's inside deep within you would somehow be displayed in the game itself. It's like me being all so talkative in the game but just so quiet and withdrawn in real life. The shockness upon realising that she actually dislikes someone whom she calls "brother", and to think that her "brother" is doing so much, and standing on her side every moment, listening to her side of the story, backing her up and believing in her. But beneath all these friendliness amongst one another and the closeness that they have between each other, it's all fake and untrue. It was extremely shocking to know the truth. I could have never imagined in my entire life that she disliked him one single bit. The poor guy. I wonder how he can take it, upon knowing that his beloved "sis" actually dislikes him and that she's taking him for granted. It really sucks to have this sorta people as your friend. ***** I was in my own world the other night, when JT, Alv and Adam were talking. Adam was right, I was in my own world at that time. Apart from singing softly, I was actually thinking of you. The times when we actually had late night conversations until morning 9-10am. But I know that if I can't let go of the past, I would never be able to welcome a brighter future. Haven't seen you around lately. I hope that you're doing well. :) I still miss you very much. *****

2005-09-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'm happy again! Sort of lah. For the moment! Heh! :) I wanna go to KBOX!!! Yeahh!! Mei Li Ben Nu Ren!!! HOW COME KELLY DIDN'T WIN PROJECT SUPERSTAR? WTF MAN! UGH!!!

2005-08-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

It's times like these when I'm extremely upset that I would stuff myself with food. Somehow my stomach seems like a bottomless pit, it can never feel full. Food just keeps on going down and I feel still feel so damn depressed. Thus, more food goes down.. Sigh.

2005-08-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for the exams to be over!!! Oh man. I should actually start studying now right? Sigh. Been ponning alot alot of lessons!!! ECD was extremely torturous. I'm just glad that project submission is over! A total of more than 85 pages! Woahh! Haha. Anyway, I just can't wait for the exams to be over!!! I'm gonna enjoy, enjoy and enjoy!!! Watching all the movies that are going to come out, buying magazines, going KBOX with quan, packing up my room for my future house! Heh!!! and of course playing maple too! :)

2005-08-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

Why is it that my heart aches upon knowing that you're going out with her..? Sigh. :( Maybe it was never meant to be. Between you and me..

2005-08-17T00:26:00.000+08:00

I'm really afraid now.. What if I fail my FMGT retest? :( Oh man. I've been redoing the common test paper. It really sucks. Sigh. I really have no confidence in the retest. Whatever it is, I'm just gonna do my best. I really really need to buck up.

2005-08-16T19:59:00.000+08:00

Oh man. I fucking hate it when I fail a module. It makes me so demoralised. Not only that, when I'm required to go for the retest, I just feel like giving up. There's a need to remember everything all over again. It totally sucks. And why must they hold the fucking BA conference on a weekday when we have tutorials? It's damn fucking stupid. They expect us to skip tutorials huh?! Oh man. The school system sucks. After going through today's further studies talk, I'm not sure anymore whether I even want to go to a Uni.. Which fucking uni can I make it to when my results are not even average B ?! ARGH!!!!!!!!! This fucking sucks. FUCK.

2005-08-15T00:51:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm able to take some time off from all that project work to blog. Phew. This is really terrible. A sudden flow of project work for all of us to complete. Everyone is rushing to meet the deadlines.. Everyone is waiting for the other members of the group to complete their part. Sigh. Not to mention that I still haven't revised for my FMGT retest. :( Oh man. And my eyes are closing.......................... Anyway, I received darn good news today from my brother! Hehe!! Looks like I'm gonna have a chance to move into a condo! Yeah!!! :) My mum has officially signed the papers for a unit in Lakeshore! Unit number is 0725! Quick go buy 4D please. Heh!! ;) But the condo will only be ready in about one to two years time!! I just can't wait to enjoy all the facilities down there! I'm so damn glad that my mum made this choice. :) I'm gonna work harder now for my studies and also try to cut down on spending too much! Now everything I do, I must think for the new condo's renovation costs! Heh! :) Can't wait for the time to come where I can finally move into the condo!!!!

2005-08-14T01:19:00.000+08:00

Oh man. My finger reeks of chopped garlic! Ugh!! Anyway, we cooked for the longest time ever today. Cooked for 6hours straight. Man! It was terrible. Now I know why I'm never gonna be a chef. I just can't stand the long hours standing and cooking in such a hot environment! Might upload some pics of what we've cooked later! :) Anyway, I had a really weird and terribly sad dream. Sigh... I dreamt that * said that he doesnt like mee. Man. I don't know what I'm thinking or rather dreaming of.. But I was rather heart-broken though.. Hmm, hols are coming soon! In 3 weeks time!!! :))) I'm totally looking forward to it! Heh. So many movies that I wanna watch! Charlie & the Chocolate Factory, Must Love Dogs etc etc.. I wanna go to KBOX too!!!! Will be going with quan soon! Can't wait!!!! :D Before that, I still need to rush all my projects for these two weeks. Man! It's totally crazy.. 3 presentations next week! Ugh ugh!

2005-08-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

So we're not getting the condo anymore, due to my granny's situation. I was really devasted when I heard it from my parents tonight. That's because I've been looking forward to it so damn much.. My parents were also really happy that we're gonna get the 3 bedroom condo. However, things changed today. They went to visit my granny in the hospital and saw that her whole arm/hand was swollen really badly. Plus, she couldn't walk at all. I guess that's what made them change their mind. They were this close to signing the papers to acquire the condo.. Oh well. I just went up to my room and cried for awhile. Sigh. I really don't know man. Just felt so disappointed that all my dreams are dashed. :( But I guess my disappointment is not as bad as what my ex-tutition teacher is in. I was extremely shocked to find out that her husband cheated all her money when she was pregnant the second time.. He practically took everything away from her and left her alone with two kids. That's downright despicable. Prying on a pregnant woman's money. Making her pregnant for 2 times. Making her believe that she's so blissfully in love with you. And when she's feeling so damn fortunate that she has you as a husband, you take away every damn thing in this world from her. Especially her lifetime earnings which she worked so hard to gain as a private tutition teacher. It's so blardy despicable. I really hope you have your retribution. Jail is not even enough for you. You took away all her money and when she sued you all she wants is some alimony and you don't want to give it to her. You said that you'd rather go to jail. WTF. And you're a fucking engineer. AREN'T ENGINEERS SUPPOSED TO BE RICH? YOU BLARDY FOOL. I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL. Man. I pity my tuition teacher now for having met a guy like you.

2005-08-11T02:28:00.000+08:00

Yay! Mum's decided to buy the condo already! Gonna move in about 3 month's time! :) I'm really happy and excited. Haven't really moved away from this place for like 14years? Which is a really really long time. I wonder how life in the condo would be like. One thing's for sure, I'm definitely gonna miss my room now. :( I better take more pics of my room since I've grown to be so attached to it. Maybe we shouldn't move afterall? :( So hesistant about moving now.. It's like a new chapter in my life. Environment's changed, transportation's changed, practically everything is gonna change around me.. Oh well. Is this what I really want? I'm just scared that I'll miss the house I'm living in now.. :( Lotsa sentimental value in this house.. Can't bear to move.. Sobx.

2005-08-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

Went to take a look at Lakeholmz today. My mum is really attracted to that place as they have given the customers a really really good package! The place that you buy, includes all the interior design and furnishing! I really like the showflat alot. They designed it really nice, but I think it ain't as nice as the Lakeshore's showflat. However, 1 thing different is that Lakeholmz showflat is more realistic and that what you see in the showflat, will be included in your unit when you buy the condo. I think that that's a really good deal! Furthermore, Lakeshore doesn't provide such a good deal. So when you buy the unit, you'll get a white looking place and you still need to hire an interior designer to design the place for you. :( So I guess that my mum's gonna get the Lakeholmz offer. :) We'll have to see about that. Heh. I'm just really excited about moving house soon! :))) Shucks! The thought of having a new room is so exciting, I can't find the mood to study!!! I'm still daydreaming about my purple new room! Sigh!!

2005-08-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

I went to pay LakeShore a visit today with my parents, Uncle Ross & his family. Well, I must say that I really loved the interior design of the units in the condo. It was fantastic! I love the whole spa concept. In fact, they call the condo a spa village. There's like a spa hut right smack in the middle of all the swimming pools! And the spa is owned by Aspara Spa! Quite famous leh! Sigh sigh. My parents and I fell in love with the 3 room unit which doesn't have a study corner. I really love the way the kitchen was linked to the maid's bedroom and there's still another bathroom just beside the maid's room! It's like so perfect! My granny can just stay in there! I know that it might sound horrible to give my granny the maid's place. But frankly speaking, there like no more room for my granny to sleep in. And I love it that the maid's room is just beside the toilet! This means that my granny doesnt have to walk so much just to go to the toilet! She has difficulty in walking you see.. I've also decided that I'll take the room which faces the Jurong lake! This means that every morning when I wake up, I'll be able to see the amazing lake and the greenery all around it!! :) My parents' bedroom is even better! They have this sunken bath thing inside the bathroom itself. It's like so totally cool! The sunken bath matches the spa concept that the condo is trying to promote! I really really love the sunken bath concept. It's so cool! Imagine me soaking myself in a bath spa..! However, my mum decided not to get the condo unit in the end. Sigh. I'm quite disappointed actually. The people there gave us such a good deal! They're gonna give us 12% discount, plus there's a monthly maintence cost $160 is freaking cheap! Even Kervin don't believe that they charge so freaking low for the condo's maintence! Not only that, they reserved the unit 09-29 especially for us, so that we can check out our financial status and then go back and tell them that we're buying the condo tomorrow! Oh well. But of course there are certain financial burdens that my parents don't want to face. So I guess my wonderful condo dream is over. :( Just really really disappointed. Sigh. Anyway, I might not be able to get used to the whole idea of moving into an apartment smaller than the house I'm living now! So maybe it's a good thing that my parents are not getting the condo. :) But, I'll still start saving money to buy a house for my parents to stay in next time! :)) Hopefully I can afford a condo by then! Heh!

2005-08-03T20:51:00.000+08:00

Lotsa things happened. Kinda upset with my common test results. I'm gonna promise myself to work harder. If you see me online or playing games, please give me a hollar. Ask me to go back to studying alright? Thanks. :)

2005-07-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

Get to know yourself better Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship. The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. Your views on education Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. The right job for you: You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy. How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. ***** The Real You Here is the analysis: You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right? Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking. ***** What's your personality love style? Here is the analysis: You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high. *****

2005-07-24T04:32:00.000+08:00

Finally completed the HP book in 14 hours! :) Anyway, I was browsing through the forum and I came across this thread on Xiaxue and SPG, regarding who's blog would you to read. I, of course, voted for Xiaxue, even after the SPG incident which blew the media up. Yes and someone in the forum said that XX blog recently got hacked and they believed that she might have done it just to attract attention. Or in crude, she's an attention seeking whore. Now seriously, I am questioning as to who would actually put her own blog into jeopardy, especially when you are someone as famous as XX? It's like your blog is your life, where you have written all your thoughts into it. If you go on reading through XX archives when she first started out on the blog, I would believe that her writing scheme is almost similar as she is writing now. She is still the same person ever in terms of personality, and also, it's a likely possibility that since now, her blog is so famous, she finds it a need to actually come up with something to write about in the blog, filled with wonderfully taken pictures and all, just to entertain her readers. I have no doubt what she has written in her blog, made her so famous. I guess that it's because of the immense popularity from her blog, that she is also able to garner the detests and hatred of many people in Singapore. That's probably why someone hates her so much and has thus hacked into her blog. But seriously, I don't understand. It's her personal blog in the first place so I don't see why there is a need for her to please everybody. She should know beforehand that with popularity, hatred will come too. Not everyone in the world would find just 1 single person lovable. Some of the people in school might even hate me in fact, because of personality clashes etc. So why hate someone who is just blogging out her thoughts for the world to see? She isn't offending anyone of you out there who hates her. In fact, it's her own blog, she should be given the rights to write down anything that she wants, without needing to please anyone of us readers. In fact, I wonder who came up with the "comments" stuff on blogs. It's really hilarious. Some people might love it, and some might abuse it, spouting all sorts of vulgarity upon the writer they hate so much. People out there have no rights to criticise her personality, the way that she has been brought up, or even her writing skills. Please lah, if her writing skills is that bad, would there be magazine columns waiting for her to write? Many times I visit other people's blog and see all these younglings writing in a manner like for instance "you", they write it as "euu". Well, I don't really encourage that in blogs because I really think that the language is irritating and also, it's really hard to read. It's the same with people typing in alternate caps on their blog. But you don't see me leaving comments in their blog like "You fucking suck biatch! Write properly lah!" I think that if you don't like the writer and you think that she's childish, arrogant and detestful in her blog, then don't read her blog! It's all very simple. You are just noone to her that she should please and make you happy. And if you are still insisting that XX is an attention whore, then why choose that particular date to post the hacked letter? Why bother waking your friends up in the middle of the night and crying to them for help? I believe that her sane friends wouldn't help her if they know that she needs their help in making believe that her blog was hacked into. Seriously, what would she gain out of it? What's the objective down here? To gain more attention? I think that reason sucks. If you look at it this way, why gain more attention when you already have so much? I think that XX is doing really great as a blogger. Tell me who then has been asked to endorsed t-shirts, appear on TV talkshows and newspapers, be event ambassadors etc? She has already gained so much exposure I don't think that she needs anymore attention cookup sessions, for people to realise her existance on earth. Personally, if you think that XX is an attention whore, don't you think that SPG deserves the title even more? She posted a picture of her tits on her blog for the world to see! However, as much as I dislike SPG's moral values and stuff like that, I do not go around sending hate emails to her as I clearly respect her for what she does and has posted in her blog. It's all about responsibility, respect and really, bloggers are not out there to write just to please their readers. In fact, they are writing for themselves, as they just want a place to pen down their thoughts and feelings. Comments are just outsiders' views on the topic that bloggers have written, so any bad ones, should not be taken to heart. Alright. I'm done blogging out my feelings. Just felt outraged that somebody was so crude and called XX an attention seeking whore.

2005-07-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

Now that the common tests are over, I finally have the time to play games and to read my favourite Harry Potter book!! ;) There's like so many volumes of Harry Potter books being published before, that I've actually forgotten what Order of the Pheonix and Goblet of Fire is about! Alrighty. Gonna go back and continue reading the HP book! I'm competing with Jocelyn see who finishes reading first! :)

2005-07-22T01:04:00.000+08:00

I love gossiping about people from the forums. All those good old times where I'll always remember. Heh!! Anyway, I guess I'm pretty screwed up for the BLAW paper. I really just hope that I can do well for MCQ and aim to pass it. That's all. :( Now I'm still erm.. gossiping away! & I'm really happy that WeiJian got into the Project Superstar! Heh!! :)

2005-07-20T23:38:00.000+08:00

.... & When I finally thought of complaining to my dad that the Singapore Post has such a lousy posting system, I just found out that my brother lied to me and that we've actually received the Harry Potter book! Ugh!! He just didn't want to let me know because he don't want me to steal the book away from him. -_- And guess what? He read something scary from the book and he's begging to sleep in my room! My brother is just so timid lah.

2005-07-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

Very often I wonder to myself whether I have someone that I can tell my inner and most deepest secrets to or rather, someone/people who would be able to sense when I'm sad or when I truely need someone just beside me. These past few weeks, I have only one thought in my head, which is that friendship does have an expiry date. There's so many times when I've tried to be there for my friends.. Sometimes I guess that I'm not appreciated. Also, and when I'm there for my friends, should I expect them to do the same as I did? To be there for me when I need them? You know, I feel really really lonely these few days. I feel that I really do not have someone to turn to. So many times when I feel upset, or in need of someone there for me, noone is there.. When I have all these mind boggling thoughts that I want to share with someone, noone is there.. Perhaps my really true confidant has not come by yet.. But please do know that sometimes, I really need someone to rely on. A shoulder to cry upon..

2005-07-17T04:11:00.000+08:00

I just can't wait for the common tests to be over!!! I'm really thankful that I could do CMA. It wasn't really as difficult as I had expected it to be. :) Anyway, a whole lot of things that I need to do after the common tests are over! I need a haircut!! Heh! Anyway, I seriously have been pondering over alot of things.. Hmm. Oh well. Shall blog next time. Ciao!

2005-07-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

I'm so fucking screwed for CMA. Oh Lord, please let me pass this test. Pretty please. :( I promise that I'd work harder for my CMA after this common test. And I'll definitely work hard for the rest of the papers. Please Lord Please..

2005-07-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

I've just received permission from my dad that I'm allowed to keep my brother's keyboard tomorrow, so that my irritating idiotic cousin wouldn't come into my house anymore. Anyway, I received really good news from Singtel, telling me that they are giving me this $100 voucher for me to change my old handphone as I've been using that for 24months. However, terms and conditions still apply though. But, I'm still really happy lah! I'm gonna get a new handphone! That's probably the best thing that ever happened to me today, which made me totally excited about. ;) Alright. I really really need to study now. Have been losing focus for quite a few days. Which is darn bad. How am I gonna get my grades? Ugh. :(

2005-07-13T13:31:00.000+08:00

If there's one thing I'd hate in my entire life would be my fucking stinky disgusting freeloader cousin. I have absoutely no fucking idea why he keeps coming to my house every single day just to play my brother's computer. You have no idea how much I hate him. He's so damn old and he has loads of free time. Not even bothering to work to support himself or his mum, which is my aunty. My aunty works in a hospice and she doesn't earn much. Still, she's gotta support her fucking son who does nothing but play games in my house. She doesn't even have enough to pay for electricity bills etc. But is that why he keeps coming to my house to help me increase my electricity bill? My parents are not rich either and these past few months my dad has been complaining about the electricity bill, and it's all my fucking cousin's fault. However, my dad doesn't know that and he keeps blaming and scolding my brother and me for the high bill! I don't even give a damn that so many people say that you have your brain damaged at such a young age and that you couldn't even study, thus you quitted secondary school. What I think is that you have legs, you have hands, and you look perfectly normal, you jolly well go get a job out there and stop relying on your mother. You're in your mid-twenties and you're still loitering around at my house, eating my food, wasting the electricity bill by playing on my brother's computer daily. This is some fucking shit. Disabled people are able to help out at fast food restaurants, I don't see why you cannot do the same as them. They are disabled and are worse off than you. But what do you do? You come to my house everyday to play my brother's computer. What's worse is that you lie to my dad, telling him that you're going to work soon. & after that, when my dad leaves my house, you stay there the whole damn day. Just don't give a fucking excuse saying that your brain is damaged. Hello. If your brain is damaged I don't see why you're able to play computer games in my house every single day. Computer games require loads of brainwork. I really pity my aunty for having a son like you. You're supposed to lighten her load, and not burden her at all. Are you going to be dependant on her for all of your life? You're in your mid-twenties for god's sake! UGH!!! Anyway, one fine day when I lose my cool, I will most probably scream at him and chase him outta my house. Right now, I just hate him to the core.

2005-07-11T16:40:00.000+08:00

There are tons of distractions around me. Brother didn't go to school today and he's watching VCDs of Constantine and other great movies. This makes me wanna be seated on the comfortable sofa and watch as well. However, the odour of my cousin downstairs is driving me crazy. Cousin is here to play computer games with my brother. This makes me even more wanna play my dearest Maplestory and buy their cashshop items. UGH. My brother is strumming or rather banging his electric guitar so loudly, I can hear the bass or whatever thing in my room, despite my doors being closed. The laptop is distracting me too as I feel inclined to blog surf. It's raining and the weather is so damn fine! It's a fine weather to pop myself into bed, hug all my bolsters, under the warmth of my blanket and comforter. Jocelyn is watching DVDs!!! Ugh! I wanna watch too! I just feel really really distracted. Sheesh. Despite all those distractions around me, I've managed to do 3 chapters of CMA. That's not a bad start. Alright. I need to focussss. In the meantime, maybe I shall game alittle. Hmm, okok! I need to FOCUS!!!

2005-07-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

Common tests are coming and I'm really really nervous about it. Thus after much procrastination these past few days, I've decided to finally work on my study plan. July 10, 2005 Sunday - CMA Chapter 1-3 Monday - CMA Chapter 4, 5, 7 Tuesday - FMGT Chapter 1-3 -HRM Chapter 1, 2, 3 Wednesday - FMGT Chapter 3-6 - HRM Chapter 4, 5 Thursday - CMA Revision Friday - CMA Common Test!! - HRM Chapter 6, 7 Saturday - FMGT Revision - BLAW Singapore Legal System July 17, 2005 Sunday - FMGT Revision - HRM Revision Monday - FMGT Common Test!! - HRM Revision Tuesday - HRM Common Test!! - Law of Contract 1 & 2 Wednesday - Law of Contract 3, 4 Thursday - Law of Contract 5 + Revision Friday - BLAW Common Test!! Well, as you can see, I have my study guide all planned out for me and if I religiously follow it, I might even get an AD for all of my CTs. That's IF I follow it.. Hmm.. Anyway, do wish me luck for the common tests! :)

2005-07-09T17:13:00.000+08:00

You know sometimes I really hate those salespeople at a certain Guardian outlet. I previously had some really bad encounters with them. I have absoultely no idea how come suddenly these past few years, there are hoards of salespeople only at that certain Guardian outlet. I mean, I haven't even seen THAT much salespeople all around in just 1 single outlet. Even the Guardian below my house does not have THAT much salespeople. You know what they say, that it just takes 1 bad experience to stop you from visiting that place, and around 100 good experiences to destroy that 1 bad experience you have encountered. The first bad Guardian experience I've encountered would be around last year when I was waiting for my mum to meet me at a certain shopping mall for dinner. As usual, my mum was taking ages to meet me. So, as I was very very bored, I decided to take a walk around the shopping mall instead of being seated at McCafe and reading my book. Thus, I decided to take a walk at the basement first, dropping by my favourite personal store, Watsons. Of course, Watsons was situated just beside Guardian. So I had to pass by Guardian just to get to Watsons. Guardian then had so many salespeople all around. At first, I was just wondering why the hell are there so much people blocking the pathway. But, as I walked nearer, I realised that they were salespeople. I immediately tried to steer away from them. However, 1 of them caught up with me and asked me if I would want to try their slimming pills. I politely shook my head, but the saleswoman was extremely persistant and led me into their counter at Guardian. She went on telling me about what these slimming pills do and other information about the pills. I lost count of how many times I've shook my head! In the end I had enough and I just walked off. I thought that I could finally reach Watsons and shop in peace. Then again, I was stopped by another lady in Guardian, asking me if I want to try this slimming tea. UGH!!! I mean I know I'm fat but I really hate people advertising all these things to me. It gets so freaking irritating at times. After all the slimming saleswomen came, then it was the hair saleswomen's turn. It's like one by one they lined up talking to me, persuading me to buy their products. Eh HELLO!!! When can I finally go to Watsons in peace?!!? Finally, after saying millions of "No"s, they all backed away from me. From then on, I promised that I will never patronise that Guardian outlet every again! Sigh. But I did step into Guardian again just the previous day ago, as I wanted to get a new hair conditioner. Yes, the scenario was the same again. Hoardes of salespeople out there and I immediately avoided all eyecontact with them, while heading to the hair conditioner shelf. Then a saleslady came to me and asked if I'm looking for hair conditioner. It's like duh. If I'm not looking for a hair conditioner, why the hell would I be standing at that section browsing through all the different brands of hair conditioner? She asked me a whole pile of questions on my hair and then told me that she wanted to recommend me this brand of hair products. I was getting abit irritated and fearful at that time. I mean look at my body language and you would know I just want to browse through the hair conditioners myself. Why do you still keep coming onto me and asking me questions?! Thereafter, she led me to her hair product counter, telling me that this particular brand of hair conditioner is extremely good. She then proceeded on to tell me how many customers have ordered that particular hair conditioner and also, showing me the order list etc. She even took her pen up and wanted to write my name down there! Sheesh! I quickly told her I still haven't finished using my hair conditioner and ran away from the counter. Seriously I think that saleswoman was shooting darts at me from her eyes, as I walked away from her counter. Okay. It's not that I'm condemning all the salespeople out there. I just hope that they should know there's a limit to their promotion or whatsoever. Everything has a limit! Their persistance is really getting on my nerves. So now, the lesson that I've learnt is to never patronise that particular Guardian outlet anymore. Not even walking pass it. The thought of all those salespeople just makes me shudder!

2005-07-09T01:56:00.000+08:00

Hmm, it seems like those feelings that I've once lost are now coming back to me. Jealousy, anger, those heart-squishy moments.. ~~Boy, I think I'm in love with you..~~

2005-07-07T23:04:00.000+08:00

The battle with lupus continues. My cousin is really afraid and upset. She was crying really badly in the hospital room, asking my aunty what if she dies like her mum? Does that mean that she would never be able to get married? Never be able to give birth to a child or have a family of her own? Does that mean that she won't be able to be in a relationship? Which guy would want a woman who's permanantely sick forever, someone who has lupus? Does that mean that she won't be able to grow old..? :( My heart really goes out to her.. It's stuff like that which makes me realise that I've been taking things for granted, and that I haven't been treasuring my life to the fullest. I think I shall go and visit her. Or maybe I shouldnt. I don't want her to see that I'm crying. I guess she wouldn't want to see more of us being upset. Right now, they're still doing more tests, extracting her bone marrow to confirm whether she has lupus anot.. All of us at home now are supporting my aunty emotionally, incase she breaks down or something.. I really really hope for the best for all of them.. :( Why is it that when I need someone to talk to, there's noone around.. Sigh.

2005-07-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

The test results are out. I just discovered from my mum that my cousin, Jeanne, has Systemic lupus erythematosus (SLE), in short, lupus.. What happens is that the immune system turns against parts of the body it is designed to protect. This leads to inflammation and damage to various body tissues. Lupus can affect many parts of the body, including the joints, skin, kidneys, heart, lungs, blood vessels, and brain. Although people with the disease may have many different symptoms, some of the most common ones include extreme fatigue, painful or swollen joints (arthritis), unexplained fever, skin rashes, and kidney problems. My cousin is having skin rashes now.. :( Sadly, there is no cure for lupus.. But, they say that people with lupus are still able to lead healthy and active lives. I'm sure that my cousin will be able to do that! All she needs to do is to be positive! It's really damn saddening that they only managed to discover about Jeanne's sickness now.. Her late mother passed it down to her.. I feel really upset now. My mum's telling me that my cousin might even die early.. :( Sigh. I really don't know what to think. Imagine someone younger than me having this sorta uncurable sickness. I really pray that God would give my cousin the strength to carry on. She's really fragile and I hope that she won't breakdown after hearing the news or what.. If it was me, I would have probably broken down into tears and be fearful of my life. :( Such is life.. Sigh. :( More info about lupus here.. http://www.niams.nih.gov/hi/topics/lupus/slehandout/#Lupus_1

2005-07-06T21:37:00.000+08:00

I received really terrible news from my mum in the morning before she headed off to work. She told me that my cousin, Jeanne, has been admitted to the hospital. She only knew of it when my aunty called her late last night. My mum told me that Jeanne has got more white blood cells than red blood cells.. She hurt her big toe just a few weeks ago and apparently it swelled up really bad and became black. Then suddenly just a few days ago, her body started to show red spots all over. You know, I'm actually quite worried. It must be due to too much of that NKF #8 show, You Fu, that I keep thinking that my cousin might have contracted blood cancer. I seriously hope that that isn't true! She's such a young intelligent girl, so pretty as well. :( Can you imagine the fear that's going inside her heart now as she lies on the hospital bed, not knowing what sickness she has? Or rather, thinking/knowing that she might have contracted cancer? We're all waiting for the test results now. Although I'm not exactly really close to her, I'm really hoping for the best.. Really..

2005-07-04T21:37:00.000+08:00

So exciting man! I can't wait for the male episode of Project Superstar which happens this Wednesday!!!!!! Ahh!! Heard from the forum that JunYang scored the highest! Here's the scoring from the forum!

Leon - 32.5
Jason - 28.5
WeiJian - 36.5
JunYang 38.5

Yeah!!!!! WeiJian!!!!! Jia you!!!!! :)))) *cheerss* 2nd highest lehx!!! Haha. =P I'm gonna go bonkers man. Heh!

Can't waittttt for Project Superstar!!!!!!!!! :)))

2005-07-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

My room has this darn pungent smell of durian now! Ergh. It smells like shit. -_- Anyway, it's youth day tomorrow and why is it that we poly student don't get to enjoy Youth Day, unlike those from Primary, Secondary schools plus Junior Colleges? :( Just a little note that everyone should pick up the phones and dial 1900 112 6868. The stories that they show there make me so damn touched, that I'd start tearing. I've dialed the number.. Have you? :)

2005-07-01T18:37:00.000+08:00

It's really unbelievable that time has zoomed by so damn fast. Just a few months ago, we were all still preparing for our exams and the aromatherapy workshop. However, right now, it's time that we should prepare for our common tests again! Just 1 more week and it's our term break! Can you believe that?! Sigh. Just 1 more month and our semester break is here! :) There are so many things that I need to catch up on. I need to start revising for my BLAW!! So far, I haven't really been able to understand what the tutor has been saying! He speaks with an angmoh slang and sometimes mumble to himself. & if he asks whether we understand what to do, it'll be damn embrassing to say no just because I didn't complete my BLAW tutorial. Also, I'm kinda scared of CMA. Yes. Even the tutor says that we need to keep practising it as CMA is one module that has the highest failure rate in the cohord!! Ahh!! :( & you know how horrible I am in counting stuff like this. But I think I shouldn't use that as an excuse that my CMA wouldn't do well. Anyway, we had this entreprenuer talk today during lecture. Seriously speaking, it was kinda boring and long that I almost dozed off! I would rather prefer to catch Bill Gates talk in Singapore than to stay in the LT. :( Oh well! It's not everytime that Bill Gates come by Singapore and give a talk right! So if today there wasn't any important lecture, I would've skipped it and attended the Bill Gates talk! :( Muahaha! I can't wait for exams to be over!! I wanna catch Fantastic 4 and other fabulous movies!! ;) & I wanna go and try all the food at the Singapore Food Festival!! Anyone wanna go with me to watch Fantastic 4 or eat at Bugis?? :) ***** I think my hair is dry and damaged leh. How? :( That fake Jocelyn tell me that can see that my hair got spilt ends from far.. Erm.. I'm like O.O I everyday look at my hair ends, I don't see any spilt ends leh. How come she say I got spilt ends? :( Oh ya.. Then she was teaching me how I should wash my hair. Sigh. =.= Anyone got any hair tips on how to make my hair more shiny, silky and smooth?!!!? :((( On a sidenote, I feel like going for pedicure and manicure.. Hmm.. Never go before, so I would just love to try the service!! =D ***** On a happier note, I save $150 for the month of June!!! :)))

2005-06-30T19:35:00.000+08:00

Finally completed compiling our FMGT project!!! Yeah! Finally one project down! Still left the presentation though. Hmm. What should I do for presentation? I need to have some creative ideas!!! Ahh! I just hope that I can let my creative juices flowwwwww!!! :)) Alright. I'm much happier today! Heh. Ate the hotdog from the Bubbletea shop in school! I must say that it's really not bad. Haha. :) I wanna eat the nachos!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;) It seems so yummy, although like damn ex. And I wanna try the chocolate ice as well! Heard from KY that it's nice! Heh. I'm just much happier today lah. Yeah! :)))

2005-06-29T22:03:00.000+08:00

Today was a rollercoaster of emotions for me.. I was so damn bloody moody the whole day, getting pissed and irritated at every single thing at my face. I think my face looked especially black during lunch time. Sigh. Woke up today with such a terrible stomach. I almost didn't want to go to school because of that. Was having a darn bad diahorrea and my stomach was churning so many things inside.. Everything that came out was really damn watery and solid at the same time. -_- Then went to school early just to book the level 3 project rooms for doing our FMGT project tomorrow. But I realised that we can book it by using our laptops as well. I'm so dumb right! Why am I so dumb! Sigh. :( Went to school so early for nothing.. I was again so moody throughout all the tutorials because my stomach was cramping me and also I was damn bloody confused with FMGT stuff. Almost fell out with KangYung during our lunch period. He keep insisting that we shouldn't change topic for FMGT. Well, I did think of that what! I looked through the FMGT notes the previous night and realised that it's better that we remain at the same topic and also to look at the correct articles, something that we can relate to. But he didn't ask me whether I still want to change topic anot. I mean, he did somewhat ask lah, however, he then started to talk on more about the pros and cons about changing topic. He didn't even give me a chance to talk at all!!! -_- And he kept talking on so much until I really really have no comments. I was so irritated until I was boiling, I just snapped back at him. However, he kept giving me one whole load of reasons of why we should stick to the topic. I was so fucking irritated with him at that point. I hate people who repeats stuff to me. I mean it's like I know already what. You have made your point clear! Why do you need to keep repeating?!! My stomach already giving me some fucking problems and there you are, talking and repeating yourself. & I didn't even say that I wanna change topic right?!!! -_- If there's one thing that I hate, would be people so nag at me for such a damn long time. But everything was okay after that. Now, I'm quite upset that I have nothing to do for my project. :( It's like they're still down there doing their project stuff and I have nothing else to do except to play games and just rot? I feel completely useless not being able to have anything to do. I hate the feeling of not having anything to do or help the group. It's something which I feel that it's missing in me. I love to keep myself busy, so that I wouldn't have a chance to think of other things that would make me upset or make my life worst. Sigh. I really have nothing to say. I feel damn sad and horrible plus a whole lot of things now. I really pray that everything will go well tomorrow and that I'd stop feeling so bloody shitty. & If you're probably wondering how come I show my emotions so easily on my face, I guess it's probably because I've been through a bad patch before. I don't wanna keep all my feelings inside me and not let it out and tell anyone about it. I guess if I do keep my feelings to myself, I would most likely fall into depression again. I just don't want that to happen again.

2005-06-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

Today saw Mr Brown and his wife, Mr Miyagi at Bukit Timah Hawker Centre!! Behind NP that food centre. Heh! Quite shocked when I saw them man! Coz I've never seen them before! Only read about them and saw their pictures online. :) Anyway, really screwed for FMGT project. Really really screwed. There are seriously some concerns with KY's plans. I brought it up yesterday and they didn't really wanna listen to me and insist that what they are doing is correct.. -_- Sigh. I really don't know what to do. FMGT seems so damn screwed. I'm really tired of mathematical projects!! :(

2005-06-26T14:03:00.000+08:00

2005-06-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

I guess it's times like these where miracles really really do happen. I thought it was impossible for us to finish all our 3 projects, having deadlines of Sunday, Monday & next Friday. However, I was proved to be wrong. It's amazing how we finally cleared the air with the ECD tutor on what exactly should be done. Thanks to Kervin, we all managed to compile everything into just 1 page!! Aiya! He should've just came to school and not be absent for so many days. Then we wouldn't have to crack our damn brains for the ECD stuff! Anyway, we also completed our I&E business plan within 2 days!! Amazing! Heh! I thought it was kinda impossible to complete the business plan so soon. But I guess that nothing's impossible. All things are possible! :) I really wonder if it's His way of doing things so that I'll be able to make it for the 40 Day Purpose thing tomorrow. I'm still hesistating whether I should go to church. I really need someone to accompany me. There's this fear in me though. Fear of being all alone there, since I don't even know anyone well from church. I don't even have someone that I can clique with. Oh well. :( Sometimes, I do blame my parents for having to bring this upon me. I know that last time I used to go to church almost every Sunday when I was really really young. Then suddenly, it was just frequently going to church and then never going to church at all.. This happened because of the different schedule of my dad's working hours. I feel really sad that I haven't really had a chance to hang out with the church youth when I was younger. When I look at all of them now, I realised that they really have this deep bonding between all of them as they were all together for so long and they met up with one another every single Sunday. If I really did come to church weekly, probably I wouldn't feel all so lonely and have no friends there at all. I wouldn't even feel fearful of just going to church. I'm really down now.. I promised the pastor that I would go tomorrow. I told one of the youth leader that I'm going. But, I really have no idea if I should go. Fear is something that's keeping me away from it. Maybe I should just go next week?? Sigh.. All these thoughts of confusion is really making my life worst.. If only they knew how I'd feel.. :(

2005-06-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

Rushing for ECD, I&E, plus FMGT project now! Everyone please help me to do this ECD survey!! Thanks!! http://www.questionpro.com/akira/TakeSurvey?id=256496

2005-06-22T00:28:00.000+08:00

Very stressed now. Just found out from Jinglin that the points that need to be covered for our one page report is totally different from what was supposed to be in it. Apparently, our very "clever" ECD tutor gave us the pointers which should be included for Assignment 2 instead of Assignment 1.. I'm really pissed at him lor. This means that we spent 3 hours in school today doing pratically something almost useless because we won't be able to submit in what we've done. ARGH! & ECD report is due on Monday. I just found out that we need to conduct surveys, collate our results to find out what's the market trend, feasibility etc. Bad thing is that we haven't even thought of the survey questions! UGHHHH!!! And there's only 4 days left to complete our business report!! Plus, we still have FMGT report which is due next Friday!!!!! So much projects to do and so little time. Plus, the project rooms are always so fully booked.. Sigh. Very very tired now. Maybe I won't be able to make it for church this Sunday afterall..

2005-06-21T19:05:00.000+08:00

I'm a very happy girl! :))) Thanks everyone for the wonderful wishes and presents that you've given me! Heh! :) I would want to thank TB29 for celebrating my birthday with me in Marche also! Thanks for the yummylicious cakes guys! :))))) Seriously I wasn't able to sleep well on Sunday night because I was kinda afraid of what KY and the guys would give me. KY called me and told me that he was afraid that I wouldn't like the present! He sounded so serious so I was like thinking what if I really didn't like his present? Then how? :( But anyway, I love their present the best!!! It's one of my favourites because I find it really thoughful and sweet!! Even the wrapping is so wonderfully chio! Heh! Thanks to KY's sister for wrapping it! :) Upon reaching home, I immediately tore up the wrapping paper as I wanted to satisfy my curiousity. ;) Opening the box now... TA-DA!!!! It's a big bottle of red saga seeds!!! It's so sweet lor!!! Haha! I love this present alot. KY was saying that they gave me this to tell me that they treasure me alot. Heh. So sweetttt! Ahh! :)))) I'm very happpy! Heh! :))) Jocelyn also gave me a surprise with her present!!!!!! Here it is!!! I really wondered what she gave me as I unwrapped it. She kept on saying that it's fragile! So upon unwrapping it, I gave a squeal of delight as I saw the Gigi Leung's CD!!!!!! Gigi Leung!!!! It's the CD that I wanted in my wishlist!!! Haha! & She told me that she went back to the music store and got it for me when I went home from JP on Thursday. Earlier that day, I was just merely telling her that I wanted the CD and that maybe I should buy it! But I didn't in the end. Heh. & She remembered and bought it for me!!! So nicee! Thanks girl for the CD and cute doggy mouse pad!! :))) *hugggx* Also, thanks TB29 for the birthday card!! ;) Hehehe. Thanks HuiWen, XiuQuan & Olivia for the wonderful gifts as well! Liv!! I've hung that cute seal/dugong keychain on my bagggg! ;) Thanks alot for the cute little thing! Heh! :) I'm really really happy with everything. Thanks alot everyone!! :)) *hugggx* Finally, Happy 19th Birthday to me!

2005-06-18T21:28:00.000+08:00

Thanks Huiwen & XiuQuan for the lovely presents! :) Updated: Pics added! I love the necklace that you gave me Huiwen! Plus, the books! Haha. I will try to read them as soon as I have the time ok? Now really busy with all the projects and stuff like that. :( Anyway, I'm waiting for your pics! Heh! Oh yeah! & I forgot to give you your birthday present!!!! Meet up another day then I give you okay? Thanks for sacrificing your tuition to accompany us! :))) *huggx* Had a really really tiring day today as we cooked and cooked and cooked! Haha! But I think some food really came out quite well! Especially the chocolate fondue, although it was a tad too thick. We can't seem to freeze it back to normal solid chocolate. But it tasted really good with the strawberries! Ahh! It was such a pity that HuiWen didn't really like strawberries! It's okay! Next time we cook fondue again if possible! :))) I'll prepare more of other fruits like bananas or whatever! Just tell me which fruits you eat! Heh. ^^ Here are some of our chocolate fondue pictures! :) Dipping the strawberries into the chocolate fondue! Our delicious strawberry dipped in chocolate fondue! Pouring more chocolate over the strawberries! My brother being a KPO, helped us to pour the chocolate sauce too. HuiWen posing with the delicious looking chocolate-dipped strawberries! ;) I cut out the pic as I realised Quan & I don't look very nice inside! Haha. =P There was alot of chocolate fondue and we didn't really know what to do with it, so we decided to make chocolate by using those jelly moulds!! ;) Our end product!! Ahh. But it was such a pity that the chocolate did not really solidify like we wanted it to. The chocolate was soft instead! I guess I will be having nutella spread over the next few days.. Heh! My brother is so happy that he helped us with the chocolate fondue that he called himself "Master Chef!!" -_- He even made a pose to go with his title! ;) The rosti was the worst to cook! Ah. Mainly because we didn't have enough patience to wait for the potato to brown and also, I forgot to coat the pan! :( Anyway, after much cooking, we finally got down to watching Constatine! I know that some parts might be freaky, but the most freaky one of all was when my brother dashed into the room and scared the hell outta us! All of us screamed so loudly for so long!! Wah. My heart really almost popped out when my brother did that stunt! -_- Sheesh!!! & Now I have lotsa food leftover! Especially chocolate! Heh!! Maybe should bring some to school and let Jocelyn try! ;) I guess the main thing that I wanna say is that I had alot of fun with you guys today! Especially wenz! It's been such a long time since I've seen you! Grow more chio liao! Heh. *huggx* Love ya gurl! :) Really thanks alot for all the stuff that you've given me. & the letter that you wrote! :))) *huggx* P/S: Olivia! You should've came today!!! Heh. Anyway, Get well soon! :)

2005-06-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

All I want for my birthday! ;) Updated: [18/6] My dad pre-ordered the Harry Potter boook already!!! Yeah! :))) *beams* [20/6] Jocelyn, Melanie, MingHui & Caleb has also kindly bought me the Gigi Leung's latest album!!!!!!!! :))) I'm a very happy girl! Heh. =D Well, there are actually quite a few things I want for my birthday leh! I wonder who will buy them for me. :( These are the 4 things that I really really want! Heh. 1. The expensive and posh OZOZOsac wallet! The wallet which I've been craving, for almost 2 whole months at TheWalletShop!!! The wallet that I want would be the one that looks like the bottom left wallet! Heh. But it's damn expensive as well! $59.90. Sigh. I think I should psycho my mum to get it for me or something.. 2. Harry Potter & the Halfblood Prince! For those who do not know me, I'm actually a really really huge Harry Potter fan! Which is why I want this present so damn much as well! I MUST HAVE IT! Which is why I'm so attracted to the offer than Singpost has brought up.. Free delivery on 16th July!! And also, you will be the first few to get the book in Singapore!! :)))) I want to read the book!!! Can't wait for it to be out! Hehehe. 3. Gigi Leung's Lastest Album! I love singing alot alot alot! And I love to go to KBOX! But I haven't been to KBOX for such a long time and I'm always a sucker for singing! Heh. :) Also, I love to sing Gigi's song leh! So I would love her latest album, which includes all her past songs as well! Heh. So like that I can start practise singing and I can be prepared to take part in the next Singapore Idol! Heh!!! ;) 4. The New Handphone Wraps! Yes. I realised that there's this new thing in town these few days! It's the new handphone wrap thingy and it looks really funky!!!! So I want to make my handphone all pinkish and stylo as well! Heh. Hopefully someone can pay for my wrapping fees! =P This is the company's website! www.gmask.com.sg 5. Free Golden Village Movie Tickets!! Heh! I'm such a movie buff I think I'll need lotsa tickets! Especially when so many new and cool shows are coming out!!! Gosh! Can you imagine the money that I have to spend if I would want to watch all the shows that seem so damn good?!!?! So I think if someone could treat me to watch a movie or two, it would be great!! :))) 6. A new pencil case! I'm kinda tired and sick of looking at my old pencil case. So it'll be good if I have a really new one that is cool, funky and pretty! :) And big too as well! Because I have alot of stationery to place inside my pencil case! :))) ***** Well, that's about all people! Heh! Happy 19th Birthday to mee! :)))

2005-06-17T11:48:00.000+08:00

Seriously I'm quite concerned with my health these few days. Almost every single day towards the end of school day, I find myself feeling faint and light-headed. That's why I choose to take taxi when going back home, to lighten my load and my headache. Didn't go to school today because I was having a really bad flu which made me unable to sleep. Thus, I had this really throbbing headache. I just did some calculations and I realised that I've spent $240+++ so far! Which means that I left $200 in my money chest. :( Ahh. No more movies and unnecessary spending for me next month! I really need to save money! Need to pump those doe into my bank account! Anyway, there's quite a few things that I want for my birthday. Mainly the wallet that I've been eyeing on for so damn long. Plus, the new Harry Potter book which is coming out in July! It seems that SingPost has this offer at $40.50 plus free delivery! :) I'm so gonna get the book! As for my wallet, I think I should psycho my mum abit to buy the wallet for me. Heh! ;) Tomorrow's Saturday! It's cooking time!!! :)))

2005-06-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

So tired now! Just reached home after spending the whole day in school doing project! Then Jocelyn and I went to McDonald's to eat and went to Cold Storage to shop! We had such a fun time shopping, discovering new stuff that they don't sell in NTUC! Everything there was so fresh as well! No wonder they called themselves the fresh food people! Anyway, bought lotsa things for the party on Saturday!! :) Rosti, chicken, blueberry cheesecake, broccoli, cream sauce and baked bacon bits. Lotsa cooking to be done lah! Heh. Tired now. Shall go to bed! Ciao!

2005-06-14T15:56:00.000+08:00

Had a really fun day yesterday! The group came over to my house to search for newspaper articles for our FMGT project! Searched for quite long and we still couldn't find any article which was related to the topic that we had chosen. Therefore, we decided to change topic! We chose the one which we found the most newspaper cuttings on. Heh. Then Jocelyn, HuiPing and I were talking about dinner and HuiPing asked us if we would like to eat Pizza Hut because she has got 25% discount! Then I remembered that Pizza Hut got this Super Monday offer which is that we would get 10 pieces of Spicy Drumlets and Garlic Bread for free!! And we were such gluttons lah! We ordered even more than we could finish!! That's coz we ordered baked pasta and rice for each of us respectively. Haha. So when the food came, we ate the pasta/baked rice first and it was enough to keep us full! But Jocelyn damn zai lah. She ate 3 slices of pizza while HuiPing and I ate 2 slices only. We were all damn full because of the drumlets too. Can't believe that I'm gonna be 19 so soon!!! Will be going to Essential Brew with quan and wenz on Sat! Livie! I hope you can make it leh! Haha. ;) Still got Marche on Monday!!! So much more eating to do!!! lol. =P Gonna put on a few more pounds man! Oh yeah. Mummy called from M'sia and told me that Uncle's is back from China and that he's quitting his job there! The company refused to pay his salary!! Sigh. :( But I'm glad that he's back because Sansan needs him!!! :)

2005-06-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

A wave of emotions swept through me as I baded my parents and brother goodbye from my doorsteps. *sob* I knew I've said this so many times. They're gonna be away for 1week. :( Sheesh. I'll miss them so damn much I know it. My mum even gave me last minute reminders that she had bought some food for me to eat as she knows that I'll be lonely and have nothing to eat at home. :( She also asked me if I have enough money to spend over the week! :((( I guess only mum knows best what I really like and need. *sob* I want my mummy! Oh well. God bless them that they will have a safe busride. Enable them to have an enjoyable time at the camp. I hope that they will come back in piece and bring goodies back for me!! Heh. :) My last words to them: Bon Voyageeee and take loads of care! Loving you guys!! :)

2005-06-11T14:51:00.000+08:00

Finally I have time and I'm not too tired to blog. Watched Mr and Mrs Smith on Thursday and it was fantastic! I love Angelina Jolie and Bradd Pitt! They look so freaking good together. How come they weren't together before?!! Sheesh. They look like the perfect couple! I'm so happy that Bradd is with Angelina Jolie now! :) She's a real keeper! So HOT, SEXY and she has such a big heart for the needy people! Yeahh! :))) Ah! But Jocelyn and I reached back home so damn late. We were all so tired already. I even had to struggle to do my HRM tutorial and waking up the next morning! :( Friday was almost a killer for me. I had to not only try to stay awake throughout the whole day, but to also think of new alternatives for our business plan in case it gets rejected by the lecturer. & it really got rejected. The lecturer wasn't really that keen on our Heaven & Hell idea. Oh well. So we changed to something else. But that thing that we changed to, I ain't really got the passion for it. Sigh. & They claim that we should have the passion, peserverance and patience when doing a business. So how am I suppose to do a business when I'm not passionate about what I'm doing? I guess there's no time for worries now. I still need to focus on the projects that we are going to do. We're so way behind time this sem. FMGT deadline is in about 2 weeks and we haven't really got anything done yet! Ugh. :(

2005-06-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

My family's gonna be over the next 1 whole week! Seriously, I really don't know what I would do without them! :( I still remember that time I was alone was when all 3 of them went to Bintan and I stayed back at home for whatsoever reason, with my granny. But now, although I still have granny with me, I think it's gonna be worst because I've become more dependant on my parents, especially my dad!!! I'll definitely miss those car rides to school and back from school. Plus, all those free Mcdonald's meals that I'll get from him for free, without paying myself! Ahhh! Also, how he would immediately buy nice food for me to eat when I complained to him that I'm hungry! Sigh. What will I do without him!! :( As much as my dad is so goofy-looking and has a really huge and round beer tummy, I still love him to bits! :) Happy early Fathers' Day Daddy!!!! :))) Also, my mum is definitely indispensible in the family! She's the one in charge of all the laundry and cooking and money etc.. Ahh! I'm just glad that I'll be able to have the washing machine and dryer during the week that they would be away! And no more free taxi lopangs from my mummy during the week! :( I just love my familyyy! :) Seriously, I wouldn't know what to reply now if someone asked me who's closer to me, my dad or my mum.. The last time I replied, I chose my mum because she indeed has helped me alot through that period when I most needed someone to care for me. But now, I think that my mum caters more to my brother than me. I'm alittle more dependant on my dad than my mum. I also tell my dad those minor, silly little things that I've done in school, which I know that my mum wouldn't be interested in. Oh well. Does it really matter? I still love them both to bits and I think that they look really damn cute together! Heh! :) Do you know that my dad even carries a passport sized photo of my mum in his wallet? So sweet right!!! Haha. :)

2005-06-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

There are lotsa things going through my head right now. Some good, but mostly bad. It's really hard to put in words what I have to say, for fear of offending some people who may read this blog. Going through all these stuff really saddens me. On the verge of crying.. Are my feelings true? Or am I just being too sensitive over certain matters? I really don't know. Feeling really really down now. :(

2005-06-06T08:30:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 7.30am today for nothing actually. I just decided to wake up then as I couldn't sleep anymore. Yawn.. Jocelyn and I have been trying very hard to fight temptations.. Sometimes I wish that I can win TOTO, 4D or Sweepstake. So that all the money that I've earned (or rather won) would go directly into eating good and fabulous food from the restaurants/cafes in Singapore. It'll be even better if I have my own money making machine! Thus, I would then be able to print out money everytime I need it. I can even distribute some to Jocelyn! Then, we can spend the money on everything we like and we can eat until we die. AHAHA. ;) No wonder it's so hard for me to lose weight. Because I love food! Yikes! Anyway, highlights for the week is that we'll be going to catch Mr and Mrs Smith on Thursday with KY, Tahong and Jocelyn! Those who wanna join in the fun, please feel free to come along! We'll be going after IS class to GV Grand at Great World City.. Okay. And maybe we'll be checking out the cute manager from Pizza Hut again! Heh. It all depends I suppose. ;) Hmm, I shouldn't have woken up so early... Now I feel tired again.. Yawn.. Can't wait for my allowance to come!!! 15 more days to you-know-what! ;)

2005-06-05T21:39:00.000+08:00

Watching WaterBoys now on Channel U and it's FUCKING FUNNY!!!! LOL. So funny man all of them! AHAHA. I can't stop laughing! HEHE. Anyway, slacked the whole day today too! My only complishment is that I've completed my BLAW tutorial! Shall get to doing the rest of the tutorials tomorrow! I'm looking forward to thinking of the business ideas tomorrow as well! Heh! So exciting! lol. ;) Anyway, I'm down with a damn itchy throat. This is like a signal that I might get sick soon if I don't seek medication now! BAH! I hate taking medicine!!!! :( *cough cough* I just did this personality thingy that my brother asked me to do and I found out that I'm influential and erm steady at the same time? More of influential.. Haha. I really wonder whether that's true anot. *ponders* Someone judge and tell me if I'm influential okay!! lol. ;)

2005-06-04T19:25:00.000+08:00

Did practically nothing today! Slacked around and watched Discovery Travel & Living, trying to think of fantastic new ideas for ECD's up and coming business plan. Watched this Japanese Drama show and I was so touched that I was crying practically the whole time throughout the show. Also, I was having diahorrea so I was basically running to the toilet the whole afternoon! Sigh. I'm really so bored now. Just need to brainstorm alot alot alot for project ideas. :( ***** Ahh!!! Tahong just told me that he's going to Cameron Highlands for 1 whole week, from the 13th onwards!!! Gosh!!! That is such a coincidence man!!!! My parents are also going there for Church Camp!!! If I know that he's gonna be going there, I would've signed up for the Church Camp too!!! Aiyooo!!!!! Lucky guy man him!!!! Hahaha. ;) So he'll be in Cameron enjoying his walk while all of us slog down here!!! BOOO! :( I wanna go oversea too!!! Sighhhh! :(

2005-06-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

I'm really exhausted right now. Went to Bukit Timah Plaza's Pizza Hut to fulfill Jocelyn's pizza temptations. Heh. Actually, I was kinda tempted as well! To savour the sweet and spicy drumlets. ;) When we reached there, we were greeted with such an enthu waiter! He was wearing this Hawaiian Shirt and also this flower "wreath" thingy around his neck. Wow! And he was really damn enthu can? He was like... "Hello! Table for 3!? Okay! Do you want the hot place, the cold place or the super duper cold place?!!!?!!!" "The cold place please." we replied. "OKAY!!! This way please!!!!!!!" and from there he led us to our seats. "OKAY!!! So we are having this Hawaiian promotion!!!!!!! I'll come back in awhile to take orders from you OKAY?!!!!!?!!!!? In the meantime, Miss, (referring to me) here's a chair for you to place your bag!!!!" Then I was opening my eyes big big, amazed at how I was being served. He even gave me a free chair to put my bag!!! So amazing! What fabulous service man! Haha. Plus, he's really comical lah! Us: We want the Aloha Fiesta plus the Hut's Special. And Heavenly Desire with Chocolate Icecream. Him: Wah! Heavenly Desire! Eat liao can go to heaven leh!!!! Really corny man him!!! Heh. Also, we heard him say to the other table who was ordering chicken that you eat chicken can become chicken leh!!!!! LOL. Just look at the amount of "!!!!!!!!" there is in what he says!!! ;) Our whole time eating there at Pizza Hut, we were observing him almost all of the time, taking note of what he was doing. Also, we know more about KY's family now!!! Ahaha. Rich guy lah him! Seriously, I think that with one guy like that, it really raised the standards of Pizza Hut's service!! ;) I'm not really sure if this is happening in all the outlets or only the Bukit Timah Plaza's one.. But I know that I would love to visit the outlet again!!! Heh!!!! :) Oh yeah! Can't wait for the outing with Quan, Liv & Wenz! Also, my birthday party!!! :) Yeahh!!! :))))))))

2005-06-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

My uncle is coming back on the 21st!!! Yay!!! :) Which means that I'd probably have to push forward my birthday party plans that KY and the gang is organising, as I would wanna celebrate it with my family!!! Heh. :) Alright. Have to tell them about it tomorrow. Right now I'm going off to bed! Really excited that my birthday is coming. Heh. ;) Just 18 more days!!! Yippeee! :)

2005-06-02T09:57:00.000+08:00

Have been really really busy for the past few days. Rushing through tutorial presentations and stuff like that. Finally, I'm just glad that I have sufficient time to sleep and do my own stuff. Hmm, Jocelyn has been planning something for my birthday and I'm very suspicious with what they will do! They don't even wanna tell me where we're going on that day! *raises eyebrow* Asked Olivia and XiuQuan along as well!! Heh. :) Shall come up with my birthday wishlist soon. If I have the time that is. Anyway, I bought 5 packets of top quality durian for $6 each packet! Actually it was like $12 for 1 packet. Then you buy 2 and get 1 free. But since the uncle needs to close his stall and clear stock, he gave me 1 more packet free and sold me the last packet at halfprice! Hehehe. I love durians!!!!! And the durians were really damn good. My parents keep stealing my durians to eat! -_- 19 more days to my birthday! ;) Oh yeah. I'm gonna be home alone for 1 whole week as my family goes off to church camp! Maybe I should have gotten a driving license long ago so that I can drive my dad's car to school myself, since it's such a good time that he doesn't need the car! :(

2005-05-31T00:59:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to get addicted to Discovery Travel and Living!! The programs that are broadcasted are just so fantastic! I love the ones especially about cooking! Woo! You know that sometimes my imagination just runs wild and I forsee myself having to throw dinner parties and inviting all my friends. Also, I would just shake up some yummy cocktails for the guests to drink. And everyone would be clad in dazzling evening gowns, enjoying the fantastic posh and stylish ambience at my house. Champagne glasses will be clinking and all would show their most mesmerising smile to one another. Ahhh! But I think it'll be good to have married a male chef. Then I won't have to worry about my meals and food every single day. Also, he can have the previlege of cooking during festive seasons for my family and relatives. There's just something really sexy about male chefs. Don't you think so? ;)

2005-05-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

Looking at the pile of notes that's on my bed, I suddenly realise that year 2 is not gonna be easy as year 1 anymore. Notes are so damn thick and so un-understandable. The modules that we take are really really hard. Sheesh. I'm really starting to worry about my results now. No more playing computer games anymore. I really need to concentrate on my goals now. I&E in Action is really a total waste of time I feel. All we get to do is a business plan and that's it. I think we aren't even allowed to execute the plan and set up a stall or business or something. Oh well. I thought that it would be damn fun if we set up a stall in the bazaar. :( Guess that's not gonna happen at all then.. Monster-in-Law is freaking funny and touching! Watched it with the guys today. Certain parts towards the end of the show is really sweet and I had to control my tears from falling down. :( I don't really wanna cry in front of the guys. So malu! =P Will be having 3 damn lectures in a row tomorrow! Ugh! Just hate it man. It's gonna be a damn long day. Sigh. Life's never easy isn't it? My granny came back on the same day that she was hospitalised. However, she has been really really unwell these two days. She has had a fever and giddyness. Today when she wanted to open the door for my grandpa, she fell down and the whole tray of clothes fell onto her leg. I immediately ran down when I heard her call my name. Called for a cab to fetch them to the hospital before heading to school to meet the guys for lunch. I cannot help but wonder how my granny is doing now. She's a really really weak and I just hope that everything will be well. Sometimes I get so scared that she will leave me. My worst fear would be that she would faint, hit her hear on the floor and never wake up again.. Fear of losing a loved one.. I hope that'll never come true for me so soon.. :(

2005-05-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

First day of school was... PAINFUL! Had such a hard time getting used to the new sandals that I'm wearing! Feet are having blisters already. Sob. :( Anyway, I need to get some really really thick files to store all my past worksheets. Celebrated KY's and Mel's birthday today!!! Wanted it to be a surprise but kinda flopped especially when Kervin brought KY back so freaking early and he saw the cake! BAH! -_- Anyway, the cake was really delicious (and fattening)! lol. I felt really bored taking the MRT back, so I asked my brother and my mother out to dinner with me! Actually I just wanted to accompany them while they ate their dinner. Waited like eons for them at McCafe! ~~I realised that McCafe has cuter and cuter waiters day by day. So much eye candy for me! Muahaha. =X~~ No more shopping for me until the end of next next month! I really really need to save money. Been spending ALOT on just food alone. Sigh! Not to mention that it's my birthday next month! All the more I need to celebrate! Hurhur! ;) I wonder how I would celebrate my birthday. Maybe should have like a weekend chalet party or something. OH WELL! Shall wait for my 21st birthday for a major celebration. Hopefully. =P But for now, it's time for me to hit the books every single day when I reach home! I need to be a good girl and complete all my tutorials by myself. I need to improve on my grades! :( I'm really really tired! Shall have an early night today. Tata! P/S: Please pray for my granny as she is hospitalised.. :(

2005-05-22T01:06:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Really, it's time to get down to serious business. We need to think of various events to organise during the next few semester holidays. Currently things that we've thought of would be:

Coffee/Tea Appreciation
Chinese Tea Appreciation
Chocolate Appreciation (Thought by Audrey)
Wine Appreciation (again)

Or basically, we would just do any type of event that will serve sumptious meals during lunch or what. Preferbly in a hotel or some posh, high class place.

But I think that it would be darn good if you can give me some comments on what type of event to hold and yes, based on the 4 choices above, which one sounds the most appealing. :)

Thanks!!! :)

2005-05-21T14:39:00.000+08:00

Orientation is finally over! Had lotsa fun really. :) Anyway, I'm looking forward to the new school term. Hopefully everything will go on smoothly and well. So many things that I need to do before the new school term starts! It's shopping time!! :)

2005-05-17T19:17:00.000+08:00

I am very unhappy now. Just cried while my mum was talking to me. Since I'm unhappy, I see no further reason to continue what I've been doing for the past few days. Goodbye to everything that I once had hopes for. I wanna put a stop to this unhappiness inside of me.

2005-05-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

Was just searching through my email for some login confirmation thing, and I found old emails which HuiWen wrote to me. :) Hmm, the letters really dictated how close we were, practically telling each other everything. I remember that without fail, we would always write letter during lesson time in school and place them in the pigeon holes. I think that the only thing that I really look forward to in school was actually the letters that she wrote to me everyday, when we were in seperate classes during my Sec 3 and 4 years.. ;) Thinking back about the past is really such a beautiful thing sometimes. All the experiences that I had, be it good or bad, has actually moulded me to become a person that I truely am today, making me stronger in certain aspects too. Sometimes I wonder if I return back to my Alma Mater, both Primary and Secondary schools, would my teacher be proud that she has taught someone like me? Or actually feel relieved that finally this problem kid is gone. :) But whatever it is, I'm sure that my parents would be proud of who I've grown into today. I guess that I can never remember much about my childhood days, when I was around 1-4 years old. But through those old pictures, I see a young innocent girl smiling all the time, being loved so deeply by her parents and relatives. I still remember the large amounts of toys that I have, especially soft toy of all kinds, be it big or small. Alas, I soon grew outta these toys and my mum had to threw them all away since the bedroom was getting really dusty. I think I also miss the times when I slept together with my brother in the same room. Our beds would be side by side and very often, you would see me or him just pushing the two beds together. We didn't really fancy the idea of being seperated from one another. Bad thing about sleeping together is that I would have to endure all his kicking and sudden shoutings in the middle of the night. Well, that really didn't happen yesterday when my brother slept in my room after so long! ;) Turns out that he was really afraid of the scary The Grudge trailer that he saw in WeiSheng's house during cell group. Hurhur. Anyway, enough of blogging. I really need somemore sleep if I want to wake up early tomorrow to go to school. Plus, I'm really looking forward to see HuiWen and Olivia in the coming weeks! :) School's starting really really soon and I need to go shopping really really quick! And I so wanna go to Disneyland, which is opening in Hongkong in September!!! But I've calculated the rates and it's around SGD 1k per person. :( Oh well! Someone sponser me please! ;)

2005-05-14T03:28:00.000+08:00

I could still recall what happened this time last year. He messaged me a simple "Hi!". Surprised by his sudden message, I greeted him the same word, out of pure politeness. We made some ridiculous small talk, him asking if I was truely a female, as ladies seldom played battle; warship computer games. But that wasn't all. Our small talk soon grew into big ones. He would never fail to message me everytime he was online in the game. We talked about almost everything. My poor lonely soul felt comforted, after the small amounts of talk with him. I even started to miss talking to him when he was not online. Soon, I could feel my heart doing small leaps everytime he messaged me. I guess he probably felt something too. Then, we exchanged MSN addresses and our contacts. One early morning, I decided to SMS him goodnight. It was around 6am then and I was just getting into bed after playing my game. I had hoped that he would SMS me back the same thing too. However, he did not. He called me instead and this shocked the hell out of me. I nervously picked up the phone and said, "Hello?" Turned out that I had startled him with my SMS. He had just finish hanging out with his friends and was opening his house door when his handphone beeped. And since he did not have any free SMSes, he decided to call me and say goodnite instead. I thought that he was rather sweet and we had our first ever phone chat, lasting for 3hours plus and counting. That was not our only phone chat too. He would then start to call me almost everyday, talking about his experiences and always sharing jokes with me. I could never stop laughing at his jokes on the phone and he would then always say that I'm someone who is easily amused. Oh, but our chatting was short-lived as well. He soon had to go overseas for a business trip for about 2 whole weeks. I was in fact, crushed by the news. This meant that I would not be able to talk to him anymore. No more laughter, no more joy. As he departed Singapore, he sent me a final SMS saying, "I'm gonna miss you too.." Well, many things happened in between this period of time while he was in overseas. Although he still continued to SMS me, saying endless sweet nothings, troubles did arrive here and there. Soon, we even stopped contacting each other through SMS and MSN. I guess it was partly my fault, for never being true and honest to him. If I had taken that chance with him, we would probably be together. However, whatever it is, it's over. Those sweet memories of him and me would always be relished and cherished in my mind. But, what I regret to tell him is, I'm missing him every single day. He's so near, yet so far.. I might have lost the guy that I might ever love in my entire life. Oh well.. :(

2005-05-12T02:23:00.000+08:00

i love the rain. :)

2005-05-10T03:02:00.000+08:00

I have a sudden craving for prawn tempura.. Yummmyyy. =P

2005-05-10T02:43:00.000+08:00

Kingdom of Heaven was really pleasant to watch, with all the gory scenes, the blades sticking right through the throats or ribs etc.. Headed off to school after that, to touch up on the banner. The damn weather was so scorching hot, making me so moody and emotional all the time. We had to drag ourselves for lunch, then going to the stadium to collect buckets of sand to bring back to the classroom and gluing it onto the banner. -_- Really nothing much to update nowadays. I really need a damn haircut because of the weather, and also brand new stationery! School's starting really really soon, which sucks! I haven't really had enough of resting. But I'm kinda looking forward to do projects all over again. =P I need to sleep now. Gotta do banner again tomorrow. :(

2005-05-09T20:53:00.000+08:00

Your dating personality profile: Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love. Traditional - Modern culture does not move you. You hold traditional values dear to your heart. Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have. Your Top Ten Traits 1. Big-Hearted 2. Traditional 3. Romantic 4. Liberal 5. Wealthy/Ambitious 6. Practical 7. Religious 8. Funny 9. Adventurous 10. Intellectual Your date match profile: Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Traditional - You aren't looking for someone who is sexually repressed. You want someone who is adventurous under the covers. Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life. Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Practical 2. Traditional 3. Big-Hearted 4. Religious 5. Athletic 6. Romantic 7. Funny 8. Conservative 9. Shy 10. Intellectual This is so so so true! lol. =P

2005-05-08T03:26:00.000+08:00

Bah. I feel like splurging and getting that $59 wallet which I saw at the Wallet Shop with KY and Kervin the other day. Sheesssh. At the same time, I feel a little stingy too. :( Someone please get that wallet for me for my birthday! It's coming in about... 1 month's time! ;) Sooo soo tempted to buy that. Yikes!

2005-05-07T19:28:00.000+08:00

Since I'm so damn bored and have nothing else better to do, I shall post this quiz that I ripped from Audrey's blog! :)

Your Birthdate: June 21

Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

2005-05-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

Had a really tiring and fun day with the guys tdy! Haha. Since KY is back, our gang wanted to give him a welcome back party that sorta thingy.. So sad Jocelyn couldn't make it. :( Anyway, we met up at 11.30am with starving stomachs, only to realise that the whole Seoul Garden has been reserved for a tour group and that we need to join a waiting list. -_- So hungry man. We could only go there and eat after 1.30pm! So we decided to go to McCafe to talk more about the stuff that KC brought up. Talk talk talk, finally we're able to eat already!!! :) This is the first time I eat Seoul Garden until so neat and tidy arh! The used plates were all stacked up nicely. We took only what we wanted to eat. So in the end there was no extras of food left over and we were really full! Then the hotplate was so clean, free from any remaining bits and pieces of meat etc. ;) After that we decided to watch The Interpreter, which starts at 6.50pm! Which means another 2 hours more of walking around JP.. -_- The show is really good man. It's a good political show. :) I really enjoyed it so much! Hah. Okiee. I'm really tired now. Still need to go to my granny's house tomorrow. I just realised that Mothers' Day is on the 8th of May and I haven't bought anything! Yikess!

2005-04-30T04:06:00.000+08:00

I've finally found out what is causing my knee to hurt so bad these past few days. The bone is really bruised and thus is hurting every nerve and muscle from my thigh to my knee. Ughhh. :( I hope it ain't a knee crack or what? Just pray that my knee will heal faster before school reopens! Sigh.

2005-04-29T03:40:00.000+08:00

Shit. It's almost 4am and I can't sleep! UGH! & I still need to paint the flag later on.. Stomach's feeling awful right now. I wonder whether I can report in sick today and risk 1 day of not being there to paint the flag. Yikes. Deadline is on Tuesday. :( & I would leave Jocelyn all alone!!!! Sigh.. I don't know why I'm unable to sleep!!! Shit. :(

2005-04-27T22:18:00.000+08:00

The new school timetable is out! Friday is really a day that sucks totally. We have to travel 3 different and faraway places in one day! Yucks! Anyway, I'm so excited that school is going to start!!! :) Time to go for stationery hunting! ;)

2005-04-27T14:20:00.000+08:00

Changed shoutbox to cbox. Kinda irritated with the shoutbox website. I have no idea why I keep having timeout. Sheesh. Anyway, skipped banner painting today as I didn't really feel well. Having cramps. Backstreet Boys latest album is really kinda good. Changed my blog song to one of their songs in their album. :) I'm feeling much better today. Not so angesty as last night. However, I promised Leong Wai that I would go for banner tomorrow. He seems really desperate that we are so behind time. So I'll just go for banner tomorrow then. At least I have Jocelyn with me! :) Oh yes, if this blog takes too long to load, please let me know alright? Thanks. P/S: PowWee if you want the Jesse McCartney song please come and message me on MSN. & don't say that I'm dao lah! I'm busy looking for the song in my other computer. Waiting for you to reply also. You take so long to reply. By the time you reply I'm playing game liao lah. =.=

2005-04-27T01:37:00.000+08:00

**Note: This post contains large amounts of profanities. Awhile ago, I was feeling really pissed that I had to go back for banner painting tomorrow. And I'm still feeling rather sore about it. All those negative thoughts are coming to my head, prompting me that I should stay at home, relax and play games till I drop dead. Seriously, I'm dreading to go back for banner almost every single day. We've been on this banner thing for quite a few weeks now. I don't understand why is it that other groups are almost done and we're not?! Well, simply because we do not have enough people for the fucking painting job at all. The only almost regular ones who does really help out in the painting is XueHai, PowWee, and probably me. Where are all the rest man?! The usual 7 who signed up to do the fucking banner is now missing. I cannot blame Jocelyn that she has got to work, because she has been working ever since long ago. I just feel quite irritated at all the other people, because there was noone at all to help us out, except Ann and LeongWai, because it is their job to help us out. Caleb didn't really help us much because he was in Malaysia, when we were all slogging the first few parts of the banner away. Sometimes I feel like blaming him. If he didn't suggest to take banner, I wouldn't feel so fucking stressed and unhappy now. We should've taken something simpler like IDs and such. That way, we wouldn't be struggling now and also, I wouldn't feel like being close to a burn out stage. Fuck. And he's going back to M'sia next week again! I seriously hope and pray that we can finish the fucking 2nd layer of colour painting before he leaves. PowWee has done a really good job so far, painting the banner with XueHai. I must really thank the two of them for what they've done.. But PowWee why must you find a job now and leave us to do the whole banner when we have not enough people doing it?! :( Kervin has been busy finding a job and it wasn't really successful. Which made me wonder that all those days he went to find a job can actually be donated to painting the banner and we would have completed it faster as well. & there's no fucking way I would go to school without anyone going with me. That's because I hate to be alone and have noone to talk to while doing the banner. Also, it would mean that I would have to starve myself the whole damn day because I have no companion to eat lunch with me! I have thought of giving up this whole banner thing, but I can't. If I back out now, who's gonna help them? Furthermore, I would feel damn guilty for the rest of my life as I had left them in the lurch. Sigh. I just feel so much better now after complaining and venting my anger out. What I've said above is really not much of a big deal. If only you knew the position I'm in.. If you think that I've offended you or any of your friends, please forgive me. In the end, I still love all of them all the same. :) I just can't stand banner painting anymore! Ugh! & Mel, thanks for actually volunteering to help out in the banner. :)

2005-04-26T20:07:00.000+08:00

New layout! Changed alot alot of stuff. Heh. The links are now in a friendship quilt, so you hafta click those little hearts inside the quilt to see your links! :) Really tired now. Will be making a few more adjustments to the blog! ;) Might be blogging more later on. Ciao!

2005-04-24T15:26:00.000+08:00

I had such a wonderful time with Olivia and XiuQuan yesterday!!!! =D It's been such a long long time since we hung out like that! Heh. But it was really exhausting as well. As we all gathered in NYDC, we had a really hard time trying to get a seat. The place was so damn packed! XiuQuan and I had a really difficult time thinking about what to choose and we were stuck at the 2nd page of the menu for such a long time. So we ordered the Mushroom Madness Pizza, Three Amigos Ovenbaked Rice and Happy as a clam Sphegetti. I think that the Mushroom Madness Pizza is the best of all! The mushrooms are so damn fresh and there's so much cheese!!! I love the sauce on the pizza too! Heh. :) The food was really filling as well.. Eat until we were all bloated.. Next came the surprise! The birthday cake, Mini Addiction, that I ordered a few days ago. Wow. The cake really leaves up to it's name! It's truly addictive! The cake was so fluffy and extremely delicious. Nicest cake I've eaten so far. Totally different from those cakeshop cakes! The butter cream on top was extremely light flavoured. Yet, we were all addicted to it. It's like a drug which makes you high! :) We finally left the place, bringing half of the cake back home. Went to Cine to use their toilet for awhile, before deciding that we should all stay over at my house! Yay! :) At my house, we watched the Saturday's episode of Zhen Qing and also Freaky Friday! We had such a good laugh over the shows man! It was really entertaining! :) Then I brought up some board games to my room. I wanna complain that I'm really really lousy at Monopoly!!!!! Sheesh. I was sent to jail like almost 5 times in a row!!! Thus, being not able to pay the jail money and I had to declare bankrupt! That brought me outta the game so damn early. :( But Olivia was the eventual winner! :) We finally managed to fall asleep at around 6-7am. The aircon was extremely hot. Ugh. So I moved to my mum's room to sleep instead. Olivia and XiuQuan left at around 9plus I think. Not really sure. I was extremely sleepy and blur when I said my goodbyes so I can't really remember. -_- Overall, it was an amazing and fun experience!! It's been such a long time we hung out like that! :) &, I NEED A NEW AIRCON!!!! Yikes.

2005-04-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

I feel so so pampered these two days! Heh! :) Ate fish & co yesterday for dinner courtesy of my dad. He wanted to celebrate that I passed my poly exams. ;) It's been such a long long time since we had a family dinner. Just the four of us. Lotsa talking and laughing over the table. Just the way I like it! :D Today after banner painting, met up with my mum and my brother. Mum brought us to the Soup Restaurant at JP, where we had another fabulous dinner. Was so full man! And the food there is really delicious as well. ;) Especially their speciality herbal soups!!! :) Then my mum bought this whole set of weights for my brother. Sheesh. It was so embrassing at the counter because we all couldn't carry the darn weights! It's was damn heavy lor. I think those guys around the counter thought that our family was siao or something. All my brother's fault lah! Buy some set of weights which weigh over 20 plus kg?! He can't even carry it around lor! It's a wonder how we managed to get into a taxi. -.- I realised that I shouldn't drink anymore coffee at all. Coffee makes me really really sleepy and I'm having really bad diahorrea now because of it. Ughh! :( I also found out that I've become much more tanner after being under the scorching hot sun today for banner painting. -_- I suppose that's good right? Anyway, tomorrow will have another round of pampering as I'm gonna be dining at NYDC with my closest friends! :) Celebrating their birthday with a surprise as well! Heh. ;) I wanna try the mud pies! Mud mud piesss! xP I just found out that my dad has given my mum one whole big box of New Moon's bird nest!!!! That's like so many bottles for her to consume alone! So I took 2 bottles for myself. xP It's so damn rare that my dad pampers my mum like that! Hurhur.

2005-04-20T15:29:00.000+08:00

Just visited a forum that I frequent and I found something really interesting. It looks like now there's a totally new way to express your love and affection for your other half. What you can do is that you need to visit Artpad and start expressing your love through drawings and paintings. It's a more advanced version of Paint and do take note that you will need Macromedia Flash to view the website. Here are some of the examples of other people's expression of love through Artpad. Example 1 Example 2 Example 3 Example 4 If you would love to give your darling a little sweet surprise, or you have nothing else better to do, you can go to Artpad and start doodling, drawing and painting. :) It's really cool! Heh. Finally to view what I've written for my darlings, click here! :) It's not very wonderful though. xP

2005-04-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

I miss Thailand! I miss everything about Thailand! I miss the sumptious meals that we have been having every single day. I love the sukiyaki that we had. I love all the yummylicious breakfast buffet we have been having! I miss the friendly staff at the Trinity Hotel Silom, who never fails to smile at us every single time we pass by them! :) I miss eating the wonderful donuts that they sell over there! You don't really get that wonderfully yummylicious donuts over here in Singapore anymore. :( Donuts which look like this!! It's so yummy! :) I miss sleeping with Jocelyn too! Haha. I miss the shopping in Thailand! I miss the time JiaHui stayed over at our room and chatted with us so so much! ;) I miss Audrey, XinYi and YiMei too! I miss Thailand so so much! I miss so many things about the days we spent at Thailand. I'll go there soon. One day.. Even if it means more horrendous plane rides for me. P/S: Audrey!! Let's meet up one day with Jocelyn and go out! :) * shit shit shit. 4 more days to dooms day. ugh! :(

2005-04-15T11:45:00.000+08:00

Maybe I should have gone to school afterall..

2005-04-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

I'm so terribly exhausted doing the banner almost every single day in school. Finally finished painting the base colour white today. I think that the banner looks totally awesome in white and would look so much more fantastic in colours! :) Too tired to really blog also.. Jocelyn and I released ourselves early from all the painting today and we went shopping for KY's present at JP. Dropped by Jurong Point and I saw the Harry Potter 6th Book poster!!! I wanna pre-order that book manx!! Also saw the SIMS University package! I wanna get that too! But holidays are coming to a close soon. :( However, we're thinking to get KY that sexy little thing! We'll be getting our results next Thursday. I'm really really jittery about it. I hope that I'd be able to pass all my subjects! :( I do not wish to retake a module and be separated from all the peeps I've known in TB29. Yikees. Maybe I should've studied harder. :( But it's too late for regrets now. Sigh. I just hope for the best now that's all. Heading off to rest and relax right now. Maybe I won't go to school tomorrow because I really need to wake up late for once. I miss my beauty sleep!

2005-04-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

Finally! MSN Messenger has upgraded to version 7.0. Muahaha. I find this version particularly fun!! I have been nudging and winking at tons of people on my MSN list. I just don't get tired of it!! It's just so cute to see the winks and the movement of the nudges! I think that I might be addicted to it, as I've been extremely sad and frustrated when people use the old version of MSN Messenger! :( That's because I won't be able to feel high anymore without all the fun nudging and winking with the person I'm speaking to! So, I hope that everyone, especially those in my MSN list, has downloaded the latest version of MSN Messenger! If not, I'd be in agony, because talking on MSN won't be fun anymore, especially without my favourite nudges! :( ***** BOO! I just found out that my di, who had scored 9 points for Os, wasn't able to get into NP Aerospace! YUCKS!!!!! I feel so damn sad for him man. The cut off point for Aerospace is 12-14, and he still can't get in!!!!! OMG. :( Guess I won't be able to see him in NP. :( He's quite heart broken as well. Must be because of all those smart dragon babies. Ughhh! *roar*

2005-04-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

I'm so so so so tempted to get the Nokia 7610 already!!! Omg. The pink cover totally rocks! =D Anyway, went for SC meeting today. Our topic is Inspiring Egypt! :) & We're in charge of banner! LOL. Gonna be real busy for the next few weeks! Ugh! :( Some of the Aromatherapy Pics! :)

2005-04-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

It has been a pretty exhausting week so far! Chalet was on Monday to Wednesday.. Really sorry guys about the amount of mosquitoes that they have there. I didn't know the place was sooo infested with those darn irritants. :( Anyway, I hope that all of you had fun. :) Came back home on Wed and I just went to bed for at least 6hours immediately. The only thing that I regretted during the chalet was that I didn't have a chance to finish walking my broadwalk! :( But I still wanna thank Kervin and KY for accompanying me to at least half of the broadwalk. lol. :) ***** Thursday, went out with Kervin and KY to catch The Pacifier! :) The show was really hilarious and touching! Aww. Heh. & I managed to eat my curry rice from the Thai Kitchen at JP's Kopitiam! ***** Friday was the big big day for the Aromatherapy workshop. I'm totally glad that everything went seriously well. It was better than I expected in fact! :) However, the food was rather bland. The sauce on the chicken was really thin. And the bread and butter pudding was sooooo DRY! Haik. I think we made better ones during our F&N days in Crez. ;) Then went around shopping for presents for my darlings, Olivia and XiuQuan! ;) Bought Coco Lee's Exposed album. A few songs there are really cool! I love the last song in fact.. Magic Words. :) ***** Saturday!!!! Met up with my darlings! YAY! Finally! :) I miss all of them so so much! Heh. Shocked them with the amount of chicken wings that were leftover from the chalet. We started to cook them, trying to finish as much as possible. Bitched and gossiped alot! Haha. I think we need to do more catching up man! :) Okay. So conclusion, we left 38 chicken wings unfinished. Marshmellows were so so so yummy!!!! But cleaning up was torturous! :( I'm so glad we managed to get together gurls! Must meet up and watch movies soon! Before the prices go UP UP UP! :) Oh yeah! I need to pass you gurls the presents! Heh. ;)