Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Haven't really been concentrating on my studies recently. Skipping all the revision lectures, due to the late nights that I've been staying up chatting with my friends. :) And really, it has became a habit. Heh. Anyway, I promise that I would definitely start studying extremely hard for the papers tomorrow! I really don't want to fail! Sigh. & Yihong still can tell me he going to sing KBOX for the next two days!! =.= ***** What's all these anticipation about? What do I really want from you? I really don't know myself. Sometimes I just wish that I can have someone else there for me, besides my friends. But, things do go wrong sometimes. Sigh. :( All I want is for you to be back at my side again.. ***** The past few days of conferencing made me realise that people are really not who they are. Even your so called friend, would go behind other people's back and start talking bad about you. The character of some people really do change in the game. Somehow I feel that it can be controlled. It's your character really. But you need to realised that what's inside deep within you would somehow be displayed in the game itself. It's like me being all so talkative in the game but just so quiet and withdrawn in real life. The shockness upon realising that she actually dislikes someone whom she calls "brother", and to think that her "brother" is doing so much, and standing on her side every moment, listening to her side of the story, backing her up and believing in her. But beneath all these friendliness amongst one another and the closeness that they have between each other, it's all fake and untrue. It was extremely shocking to know the truth. I could have never imagined in my entire life that she disliked him one single bit. The poor guy. I wonder how he can take it, upon knowing that his beloved "sis" actually dislikes him and that she's taking him for granted. It really sucks to have this sorta people as your friend. ***** I was in my own world the other night, when JT, Alv and Adam were talking. Adam was right, I was in my own world at that time. Apart from singing softly, I was actually thinking of you. The times when we actually had late night conversations until morning 9-10am. But I know that if I can't let go of the past, I would never be able to welcome a brighter future. Haven't seen you around lately. I hope that you're doing well. :) I still miss you very much. *****
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